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she said, why don't you kiss, kiss this - and i don't mean on my rosey red lips... May. 23rd, 2003 @ 12:09 pm
[ Current Clothes ] maroon track pants, yellow tee
[ Current Mood ] confused
[ Current Music ] bon jovi
[ Current Taste ] gum
[ Current Make-up ] chapstick
[ Current Hair ] ponytail
[ Current Annoyance ] kitten chasing cursor arrow on screen
[ Current Smell ] kitten smell
[ Current Favorite Artist ] pink
[ Current Desktop Picture ] tulips in a field
[ Current Favorite Group ] aerosmith
[ Current Book you're reading ] nothing
[ Current CD in CD Player] 3 techno mixes
[ Current DVD in player] nothing
[ Current Color Of Toenails ] pink
[ Current Refreshment ] pepsi
[ Current Worry ] trailering Eli to camp tomorrow


LAST PERSON...
[ You Touched ] ryan
[ You Talked to ] ryan
[ You Hugged ] ryan
[ You Instant messaged ] no one
[ You Yelled At ] Fuzz (the hell kitten)
[ You Kissed ] ryan

FAVORITE...
[ Food ] stuffed crust pizza, cheeseburgers
[ Drink ] pepsi
[ Color ] black, pink, teal, purple, silver, yellow
[ Album ] aerosmith, "get a grip"
[ Shoes ] docs or my nike spiderman shoes
[ Candy ] fast break
[ Animal ] horses
[ TV Show ] that 70's show
[ Movie ] a league of their own
[ Dance ] ballet - duh!
[ Song ] 'dream on', aerosmith
[ Vegetable ] carrots...raw, shared with my horse
[ Fruit ] cherries, peaches, raspberries
[ Cartoon ] spongebob, courage the cowardly dog

ARE YOU...
[ Understanding ] yes
[ Open-minded ] yes
[ Arrogant ] no
[ Insecure ] sometimes
[ Interesting ] i like to think so...
[ Random ] always
[ Hungry ] nope, just went to breakfast with Ryan
[ Friendly ] yeah
[ Smart ] yep
[ Moody ] occasionally
[ Childish ] no
[ Independent ] of course
[ Hard working ] yes
[ Organized ] to the extreme!
[ Healthy ] yea, but i could be more i guess
[ Emotionally Stable ] yes
[ Shy ] no way
[ Difficult ] yes
[ Attractive ] yes
[ Bored Easily ] very
[ Messy ] never
[ Thirsty ] usually
[ Responsible ] yes
[ Obsessed ] yes
[ Angry ] sometimes
[ Sad ] sometimes
[ Happy ] yes
[ Hyper ] not as much as I use to be
[ Trusting ] usually
[ Talkative ] do I ever shut up?!

WHO DO YOU WANT TO...
[ Kill ] a few people, but i never could
[ Slap ] same as above
[ Get Really Wasted With ] my phi sig sisters
[ Get High With ] not my scene there
[ Look Like ] *shrug* i'm ok like this
[ Talk To Offline ] friends
[ Talk To Online ] same
[worst question to ask] "what is wrong with you?!" when they already know the answer

-W H O-
[makes u laugh the most?] leslie, mandy, ryan, leah, CARMEN!
[makes you smile] ryan, mandy, leah, my kitties, Ellation
[gives u a funny feeling when u see them] ryan
[who do you have a crush on?] lets see...RYAN
[has a crush on u?] ryan...i would hope, haha
[is easiest to talk to] mandy, leah, ryan, leslie, carmen


-D O. Y O U .E V E R-
[sit on the internet all night waiting for someone special to I.M. you?] no, never did
[save aol/aim conversations] use to
[wish u were a member of the opposite sex] only once a month
[cried because of someone saying something to you] all the time, did last night.

-H A V E .Y O U .E V E R-
[fallen for your best friend] a best guy friend? yes
[been rejected] yes
[rejected someone] yes
[used someone] no
[been cheated on] probably? I never knew about it, so good job whoever it was. LOL
[done something you regret] yes


-W H O .W A S .T H E .L A S T. P E R S O N-
[you talked to on the phone] the lady at the saddle shop
[hugged] ryan
[you instant messaged] jilly
[you laughed with] ryan

-D O .Y O U / / A R E .Y O U-
[smoke cigarettes] no
[obsessive] yes
[could u live without the computer?] never!!
[color ur hair] yes, highlights
[ever get off the damn computer] no way
[habla espanol] no
[how many peeps are on ur buddylist?] around 75
[drink alchohol?] yes
[like watching sunrises or sunset] haven't seen either in forever
[what hurts the most? physical pain or emotional pain?] emotional

-N U M B E R-
of times I have had my heart broken?: once
of hearts I have broken?: not sure...
of guys I have kissed?: 9...i think
of girls I have kissed?: a couple
of continents I have lived in?: 1
of tight friends?: *counts* 7
of cd's that I own?: a lot
of scars on my body?: maybe 2 or 3...softball injuries suck
of things in my past that I regret?: a couple here and there

I KNOW: that i am lucky
I WANT: to marry Ryan and live happily ever after
I HAVE: to sell my western saddle
I WISH: i could buy ellation
I HATE: fighting about stupid shit
I MISS: dancing with my girls Sara and Angela; my Leah
I FEAR: roller coasters
I HEAR: kitty purring, 'hotel california'
I SEARCH: for guidance and hope
I WONDER: why things have to be messed up
I REGRET: not speaking up for myself when i need to
I LOVE: Ryan Reese
I ACHE: nowhere
I CARE: about my friends, family, Eli, and future
I ALWAYS: try to be patient and forgiving
I AM NOT: a bitch
I DANCE: gracefully, all the damn time
I SING: shitty
I CRY: when i feel unappreciated and walked on
I DO NOT ALWAYS: do what i should
I FIGHT: when i have a point
I WRITE: with my imagination
I WIN: when i give it my all
I LOSE: when i slack
I CONFUSE: myself
I LISTEN: well
I CAN USUALLY BE FOUND: in my room, at the barn or on the computer
I NEED: Ryan, Ellation, love
I AM HAPPY: for being so loved
I SHOULD HAVE: been with Ellation more, danced this year, stuck up for myself a long time ago.

[thanks for the survey sara. burn the f'ing floor tonite at the recital. do it for me, do it to shove it in their faces, do it for cheryl, but mostly...do it to keep the FLAMINGO alive.]
Current Mood: apathetic
Current Music: 'tiny dancer', tim mcgraw version

May. 12th, 2003 @ 02:57 pm
I got my car. I love it. I re-named it too...Mini Pandorah. Suits it better. It's going to get pimped out pretty soon, whenever I get the cash. *sigh* I'm so broke.

Formal was excellent. Very much drunken fun. I recieved the Prettiest Hair award...go me. The pictures are hysterical, yet very awesome...blackmail material, for sure! PHI SIG WHAT?! lol!

Got my grades finally. B- in Linguistics, Sociology and Art History; A- in Govt; C in 2D design. *grrr* GPA stayed the same, thank god. I need to bust my ass next year though...I always say that and I never do, cause I'm a huge lazy ass. *nods*

Ryan and I will be celebrating our 1 year anniversary this week. Seems like forever, geez. I love him more than anything in the universe, no joke. We're currently going through a tiny rough spot but we're working it out like we have before. Nothing crazy or drastic, just stupid lil shit that won't matter next month.

Ellation is doing alright. He's healthy and happy and looking very fit. He's been a pain in the ass the last couple times I've seen him...spring weather, mares are in season, that whole herd-bound thing he has going on. Our dressage lessons we had helped dramatically. He now rides on the bit and keeps contact through his back when he moves. I'm starting to see his neck filling in more at the top from working the right muscles - always a good sign. Sadly, I have to return Eli to camp at the end of the month. But it's alright, cause I'm going to ride him on my nights off and whenever I can so we can work on our topline progress still. :-)

Well, got laundry to do and dinner to start. I'll update more later...if you're lucky. Feelin' lucky? *
Current Mood: nervous
Current Music: Christina, "Genie in a Bottle"

i love my journal...really... Apr. 30th, 2003 @ 11:17 am
god i need to keep this thing updated. i never have time to write in my real journal since i am always on the go or on the computer, which i guess is why LJ is so damn popular huh? i'm a comformist...it's cool.

everyone brace yourself - Pandorah 0 has arrived!! I just leased my brand new black Focus ZX3 and will be getting it on Friday morning. I am super pumped about my lil Pandorah finally arriving. See, it's Pandorah 0 because my Trans Am will be just plain Pandorah...and since the ZX3 is like a mini Ford focus version (haha) i went with 0 instead of 1. Hope that made sense, if not, i don't really care cause it's my car and i can name it whatever the hell i want. hehe. MY CAR. I love it already.

school is over for the year, amen. scared to get my grades. i'm still praying to pass Linguistics with a C. Oh god will I cry if I pass. I busted my ass in that class, too. Stupid school.

Formal is Saturday for my sorority. Ryan and I will be showing up in our usual all black formal attire getting out of my lil black ZX3. It's going to be one hell of an evening. I've got 2 cameras and the video cam ready...bring it the hell on. My dress is super pretty, i love it to death. I should be doing some sit-ups or something so i look a little better in it but i'm just too lazy. How's that for motivational? LOL.
Current Mood: excited
Current Music: Michael & Janet Jackson, "Scream"

...and it's been a while Apr. 7th, 2003 @ 10:38 pm
a list of things to get the ball rolling again:

1. school's almost out for the year. i've declared a major and a minor, finally. registered for next year and ready.
2. may 14th will be me and ryan's one year anniversary - go us!
3. i moved Ellation to the barn I work at near school. he LOVES it, and I love seeing him every other day. we start our dressage lessons on thursday at 1p...i'm scared for him. i've been working him on the lunge line (yes, he lunges very well) in hopes to improve his topline since it's starting to sag in his old'ish age. *crosses fingers for eli*
4. i'm living in the sorority house next year in Big Ash's room, very pumped. i am also Scribe for next year, which means a lot of responsibility but a lot more involvement. Mandy is Archon...rock the house.
5. it snowed in April. stupid Michigan.
6. finals are coming up and i am rather scared for my grades. i feel like i've slacked a lot this semester and it wasn't necessary at all...then again, when is it really necessary to be a huge lazy ass? *sigh* I got an A- in Govt, so that'll help my GPA a lot..thank god for Gaylord classes. Linguistics is the worst...i just need a C, for the love of all that is Holy!! *begs towards sky*
7. i need to shower and get to bed. i have to feed the horses at 630 tomorrow morning...*sarcastic yay*. stupid horses eat too god damn early. eli's cute lil face pressed against his stall door makes my morning all the better. yay for my cute pony!
Current Mood: tired
Current Music: evanescence, 'bring me to life'

long over-do updates Dec. 31st, 2002 @ 12:27 am
1. quit my job at Victoria's Secret. So glad I did. I hated it with a passion.
2. got my grades in the mail today...yuckies. Still maintaining a B+ GPA overall but I can do much better if I could ever stop being a lazy ass.
3. i haven't seen Eli since...oh god, i cant even remember. I went out to pay his board and i gave him a good grooming and attempted to lunge him, which turned into chaos cause he was cranky.
4. christmas was nice: got my digital video camera and i got to spend a lot of good time with my family and ryan's.
5. it will be 8 months for Ryan and I on January 14th. i love you, babe. He's been working so much lately that all he wants to do is sleep, and he usually does (especially in the middle of good movies!)
6. i attended my 5th aerosmith concert in the beginning of December with Ryan (it was only his 4th show - everyone point and laugh! haha!!)
7. new layout is up and looks WICKED: www.wickedbeautiful.com/ash
8. i got a new cell phone for Xmas too, and my service is GOOD - WOW!
9. i bought Ares, my blue betta fish, a big new 2.5 gallon aquarium and two snail buddies...except all the snails do is eat my plants...bastards.
10. let's see...what else did i get for Xmas...OH! DUH! Ryan bought me a white gold & diamond necklace. *whispers* he sucks up very well. =) it's gorgeous; i can't stop staring at it.
Current Mood: optimistic
Current Music: "Two days in February" - Goo Goo Dolls
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1. quit my job at Victoria's Secret. So glad I did. I hated it with a passion.
2. got my grades in the mail today...yuckies. Still maintaining a B+ GPA overall but I can do much better if I could ever stop being a lazy ass.
3. i haven't seen Eli since...oh god, i cant even remember. I went out to pay his board and i gave him a good grooming and attempted to lunge him, which turned into chaos cause he was cranky.
4. christmas was nice: got my digital video camera and i got to spend a lot of good time with my family and ryan's.
5. it will be 8 months for Ryan and I on January 14th. i love you, babe. He's been working so much lately that all he wants to do is sleep, and he usually does (especially in the middle of good movies!)
6. i attended my 5th aerosmith concert in the beginning of December with Ryan (it was only his 4th show - everyone point and laugh! haha!!)
7. new layout is up and looks WICKED: www.wickedbeautiful.com/ash
8. i got a new cell phone for Xmas too, and my service is GOOD - WOW!
9. i bought Ares, my blue betta fish, a big new 2.5 gallon aquarium and two snail buddies...except all the snails do is eat my plants...bastards.
10. let's see...what else did i get for Xmas...OH! DUH! Ryan bought me a white gold & diamond necklace. *whispers* he sucks up very well. =) it's gorgeous; i can't stop staring at it.
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Yo. Since this is my first update in ohhh..a couple weeks, I'm going to give you the short version of my recent life happenings.

I work at Victoria's Secret - it's boring and I am glad to only be seasonal staff.

I haven't seen my horse in 4 days and I haven't ridden him in a week and half - due to my lovely new job and my shitty hours. It pisses me off royally; I want to see Eli.

Ryan and I celebrated our 5 month anniversary on October 14th - we were both asleep by 1230 that night and he was late for work the next morning because he overslept. Yea, we rule. He bought me really pretty roses, but as the song says, every rose has it's thorn and my thumb felt that wrath. Ouchies. I got a nice bruise out of the deal.

Phi Sigma Sigma has taken over much of my social life, which rocks. Sunday I found out that Amber is my big sister - yay! I love her already. haha. I've never had a real sister, so this is the next best thing for me, which excites me greatly. This weekend is initiation followed by our annual hayride. I'm bringing Ryan as my date and I am responsible for all of his actions...maybe I should take someone else? He better be on his best behavior or I'll kill him, drunk or not. It's going to be a riot. Mandy, Ryan and I are all wearing our cowboy hats too, cause we're geeks like that. C'mon though, it's a HAYRIDE, ya gotta be a hick somewhere in the mix. =)

School sucks, as always. We got our Winter catalogs yesterday, which just stressed me out more. I don't know what the hell I have to take anymore and it frustrates me. *sigh* Speaking of school, I have a paper to revise that is due at 2 - gotta go do that.
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So, who wants to hear how freaky and strange last night was? Don't everyone jump at once now...ok, so, I had our weekly Phi Sig meeting at 830. Went to that and enjoyed some chaos with the fire marshall for blocking the door so we could perform our rituals (we won that fight - go greeks!). As Les and I were driving our trucks to North Lot 1 we decided that we were hungry, so I drove and we went to Wendy's for a late night (10pm) snack. We called See-Us to drive us back to our building cause we're lazy asses and cant walk that far anymore, lol. As See-Us was dropping off a few other girls I see two guys walking down the street, one is dressed in a military uniform. I do a double take only to see my ex, Adam, back from the Marines. I literally dove out of the slowly moving to a stop See-Us van and ran after him and Paul. He had no damn clue who I was until I was about twenty feet from him. Needless to say, him and Paul came over last night and ended up staying around until like 2 am. Oh my god...the world is so strange lately. I still can't believe that I saw him on campus...creepy. It was great to see him again, though he did make fun of me a lot (as he always did) and made fun of my tattoo (ya jerkass!). But, it was a nice surprise anyways. He leaves the 14th for North Carolina, but hopefully he'll write me now. Good luck Adam.
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So yea...I just joined Phi Sigma Sigma. WOO! They're so damn funny. We had an incredible time at the house tonight. I found a girl that I want to be my Big Sister; she is hysterical and loud as hell (much like myself, haha). Good times!

Tomorrow is my big interview at Victoria's Secret. That's right...Ashley is becoming an angel...you're damn right. I'm pretty excited about that and scared for my social life all at the same time. =) I really hope they don't give me huge hours, I think I'd cry. I don't want to work more than 25 hours a week maximum...I hope I'm not getting in over my head. *yikes*

Friday is yet another party. Woo. Yay us. It's going to be pretty wicked, or so we're hoping. Considering the people that we are, it's usually a good night with some good drinks and such. Plus, Ryan will be up here to add to the fun. He is such a riot. God, I love him so damn much. *gets butterflies*
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